million little pieces

to help me remember things I don't wanna forget.

Month: March, 2009

its raining and dark.

what does a 17 hour sleep and 9 hour lucid followed by 12 hour sleep makes you.

i always feel sleepy when im stressed. ohh you do the maths
turned out it didnt change anything. trying to sleep on it just give you excuse to prolonged the uncomfy jiwa kacau state. it dint give you idea to settle it nor how to let it go however it did gives you nightmare or in my case ‘siangmare’.

stop looking everywhere for the answer will not be there! nobody can say the exact words to comfort you cause only you know the exact words. only your heart knows the right ingredient to make your world go round again.

running away might be the option. facing it makes you stronger. mistakes are our teachers.

happiness is subjective. do not define it from other people point of view. define it from you own thought. the pace for perfection is different for everybody. strive for the best things but make room for imperfection. hope for the sunshine but remember it does rain sometimes.people can hold your hands along the way but it is your foot that step on the ground.

stop waiting for the good things to come. it is already there. youre just too ungrateful to realise it.
if 9 out of 10 things make you sad why cant you smile for the 1 thing that makes you happy.
and im pretty sure there must be more than 1 thing that actually make you happy.

p/s : just a thought to ponder, “freedom of expression and respecting others go hand in hand”. hands up




enough said.


sleepy and tired.
two words to describe the first 4 days of study week.
sleepy and tired and still moving on.

nausea, palpitations, emotional disturbance, constant yawning, sitting nap are my bestfriends for these past few days. cant wait for the moment we’ll be parting soon. not that i dont love you but you people draw too much energy from me. :p

ohh its raining at 743am in the morning and i cant sleep.
[cant as in not allowed to/not supposed to.bukan taknak, damn!]


i’m a paranoid.

i try not to be but i am one.

this is just to prove that im admitting im paranoid.

gosh, this is hard!


the study week officially begins tomorrow.

A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step.

must use this 1 week wisely to cover all the modules ; gitendocrineneurorepro

It is quality rather than quantity that matters.

let your motivation overpower your negative thoughts

Doubt your doubts before you doubt your beliefs

have faith in sure to be on track

To have faith where you cannot see; to be willing to work on in the dark; to be conscious of the fact that, so long as you strive for the best, there are better things on the way, this in itself is success.

Dream the impossible dream,

Fight the unbeatable foe,

Strive with your last ounce of courage

to reach the unreachable star.

the end begins.

the war hasn’t started yet and i have already put my sword down to rest.
succumbing to my darker side and surrender, i forgot how to wake up and fight back.
everybody’s around. but they walk too fast to even notice someone who stood by.

i guess this is the time where i have to stand up without any helping hands.

N – the war hasn’t started yet and im already afraid that im going to lose this battle.
P – well who are you to say that? are you god? do u know whats coming next? do you know whatll happen tomorrow? if no then shut up and just try your best. stop thinking about things you shouldnt worry about
N – im scared
P – everybodys scared. but they actually do something about it. now go and start making some changes. god will help hamba-hambanya yang berusaha.

“Most people give up just when they’re about to achieve success. They quit on the one yard line. They give up at the last minute of the game, one foot from a winning touchdown.”

see one foot away only. ohh strive hard mohh!